Family Affairs Guide for Idiots

Dear Diary,

I always thought that for whatever challenges thrown to us, there will always be a way for us to get through it as long as we face the problem head on with integrity, passion and courage. And in the end we’ll walk away with a lesson learned. But what if, for just this once I want to get it right the first time. What if, I only have one chance to fix it and there’s absolutely no room to take chances? Can’t I just refer to a book for solution? I don’t know…

You know those books for "Idiots" they have in the book stores? It never fail to amaze me that they have guide for every possible things you can think of for "Idiots". Well, today is the day I wish that they have one for 'Family Affairs" to tell me what to do and how to handle a very difficult situation back home. I can’t possibly disclose what happened here but you see, after being told of what happened, I wish that I can just open a book and it will just tell me what to do and how to deal with situations like this.

What can you say or do when that ONE person who’s been the sole provider in the family all your life suddenly just changed, and the victims are the ones back home you care about just as much? You see, not being there in person makes me feel that I wish I can do something to fix it but yet I know that there’s nothing I can do. Because if I do, I know that chances are I will make it worst – I know I don’t even want to try. But, am I suppose to just sit and watch what happens next?

Mind you, this person that I’m talking about has always been the figure that we’ve come to respect and sometimes fear. He’s never the one to provoke, well I can tell you I’ve tried and the outcome was not pretty. But apparently, things are getting out of control and it’s causing a lot of stress in the household.

I know it’s kind of silly to wish that there’s a book to help me solve problems like this, but it’s tough not knowing what to do when all you really want to do is make things better so that everyone can be happy again … if only…

coming back

Dear Diary,
Let’s see, it’s been 1 year and 7 months since I’ve written anything. I have no excuse except laziness and probably lack of inspiration or rather, I’ve been chanelling my energy and time to all the wrong things; Things that brought me nothing but heartache and disappointment. But enough of that for now, I will tell you in length about that which caused me so much pain and hurt in another entry. For now, I’m just happy that I’m finally writing again. It feels great to put my thoughts into words again and I promise I will do more of that from now on. Keeps me sane.